you changed my life

Although this is a random post, and not my normal writings, I had to get this down.
Someone changed my life. It happened and I didn't even see it coming.
I think I changed their life too. I hope.
Now what?
I don't even know what to do, or how to react.
Am I just yearning for something different?
Was it fate?
Or was it just fun?
Sometimes, I don't know what to do, or which path to take now.
I'll never be the same again.

On the second subject, isn't it crazy how a song can remind you of those things that shaped or changed your life.
Some songs make me realize my dreams too.
I need to act on them and make my dreams a reality.
So much to do, and so many decisions to make.
Where do I start?

Chicago

So I'm back from Chicago, and wow, what an experience I had!

I was doing two weeks of volunteer work for OneSight with a bunch of other people from my company. It was so great to get out of my normal work environment and meet so many great people from all over North America.

I had so much fun that I didn't want to come hom even though it was 20 degrees colder there than here in my hometown. We all know how much I hate cold weather too!

This song makes me really think about where I am and what I'm doing and what Chicago Clinic taught me. Take a listen...



Our clininc helped over 3400 kids receeve the gift of sight in Chicago Public Schools. I met so many amazing people that really showed me and helped me realize how big the world is and that Virginia is only a fraction of life and what it could be.

I got to see so much more than just kids those two weeks when I was in Chicago. I got to experience the parks, the Chicago Deep Dish pizza, the people, the nightlife, the Magnificant Mile and so much more...

I can't wait to go back this summer on a road trip with Tabyta to see it all again and more!

Q3

So it seems that I've fallen off the blog-wagon! It's been weeks since I've written in here!
So much has happened in the past 3 weeks. The reason I haven't logged on is that my laptop has a virus and I can't get on it to use it, so I'm stuck with the ol' iPhone to get online. Writing a blog on a handheld device is not exactly the easiest.
I am doing just that right now though. In my defense, it was either stare at nothing for the next 4 hours or try to put this together. As you can see I'm tapping away with my thumbs on a digital keyboard smaller than my palm.

I'm now in my third month with my personal trainer. It's going good still and although I'm not loosing inches I do feel better. Currently I am in a 3-day routine, so I should really step it up and add a few days each week.
That all leads me to work. Oh work, how I loathe the 6 day work week. It's not that I do hard labor or anything difficult, but let me tell you, I'm so bored. I stand for 7+ hours a day and speak to no one. I watch people walk by, think too much, eat, watch people, think and eat some more. (doesn't sound like the trainer wants to hear that huh?) Though you may not think so, at the end of the day I'm mentally exhausted. Maybe I think too much but there's nothing else to do when you work in silence 6 days a week, sometimes 7.

This then leads me to my new adventure... Doing what I love and possibly, eventually for a living!
I have begun to take the steps to try my hand at Gogo Dancing. I was able to do my first gig on the 19th of February at a bar/club in my hometown during their Mardi Gras party week.
Let me just say, I now know what it's like, and Ms. Easy is in the right business! I had so much fun and burned so many calories! Double bonus! My PT loves to hear that calorie count!

Let me just tell you what it's like if you don't know and clarify for those of you who have a raised eyebrow.
When you are the Gogo dancer...
- you have to start dancing before anyone else has even thought about coming to the dancefloor. If you are the least bit shy, this might not be your cup of tea.
- you are the least dressed person in the place and rightfully so. Dancing hard (see below) for 3+ hours will wear you out and you will sweat. Even the smallest articles of clothing get hot after a while.
- when everyone is watching you, you have to dance hard. By that I mean move it like you mean it, using your arms, legs, head/hair flips, smile and of course what your Mama gave ya.
- Gogo dancers are NOT strippers. I don't know if people know the difference but I just thought I'd throw that out there just in case.
-if you think Gogo dancers are drinking up on the stage and shaking it like they are for multiple hours you'd be wrong. Maybe some dancers do, but for the most part it's a strenuous activity and keeping hydrated is key. Alcohol is only going to hydrate your lack of a personality.
- some drunk people are annoying to the Gogo dancers and again, Ms. Easy is justified in her tweets to the crazies. Being touched, egged on and anything else is really frustrating. I'm working so don't bother me. 
Don't get me wrong I can be friendly and talk/dance with you but take a hint if you notice the Gogo dancer moves to the other side of the platform. You're wasted, they're not, so they're not as amused as you are.

There is so much more to write about but I wouldn't want to spoil the following weeks blog entries.
I have two more shows coming up here soon. The first is "Equal Friday" at Bourbon Street on March 12. The next will be "Synchronized" in Harrisonburg on April 3rd . I'll post the flyer up once I get the file in my email.

Other than that everything else is same ol' same ol'. 
Coming up in April I will be going on my OneSight mission for two weeks in Chicago. We will be giving the gift of sight to over 3000 school children. Super exciting! 
http://onesight.org

Until then, here's to spring and daylight savings time (which by the way starts on 3/14)

-Gezika 

FUNF

What a start to a week, and maybe another dramatic end this weekend.

So last Friday night it snowed. A lot. On Saturday morning I barely made it in to work. Once I got there after sliding all around the road in the AWD, I did payroll and went back home. Even though I was the only one in the mall when I arrived at 10am, they decided to stay open untl 3pm that day. What makes them think that people in VA will be shopping in a foot of snow is beyond me. Let’s not start on the mall and the management of this place.

So Saturday and Sunday were “Snow Days” I haven’t had one of those in years, since I was in school probably. It was refreshing and relaxing to sit on the couch all day and do nothing. I got to spend both days with the BF and his dog. I’ve never been much of a dog person, but this dog really warms my heart (and my feet) HaHa So for two days, we played on the computer, took naps, watched DVD’s, and more or less did nothing all day. It was bliss!

This snow is definitely for the birds, or should I say for the penguins. I’m over the snow when it makes a big mess like it did here in VA this past weekend. We’re even supposed to get more this coming weekend. Upwards of 20 inches. Lovely. Just what I always wanted… more snow.

Moving on… I have still been doing my workouts (except when snow cancelled the Sunday workout). I’m on my second month now of personal training and I feel a bit different, nothing too dramatic though.

Also, something I do every year in the spirit of Lent is to give up something. I haven’t thought of what I’ll choose this year but I have some ideas that tie in with my training. Perhaps no fast food, or no chocolate, or no soft drinks? I should really say no to all of it for 40 days, but it may be harder said than done. (I work in a mall- believe me it’s hard) Well, I’ll think about it and make a decision soon. Any input is welcome.

Oh and to clear it up, no I’m not Catholic and no I’m not fasting or anything like that. My friend and I just give up something each year and do it together, and challenge each other. Then we party and indulge on Easter at midnight (read: lots of chocolate and fast food usually)

Remember how I started out in the first blog with 2010 being a year of change… well good news. I’m looking at everything thru a different camera lens now. I’m being positive at work, and trying to stay engaged with others so I don’t have a “bad day” and contemplate my life and what I‘m “doing here“. I’m being thankful for what I have and realizing things could be much worse and I need to stop complaining.

I also am changing my idea of networking. By this I mean open my mouth and tell people what I want to do. People don’t know if you don‘t tell them. People also don’t know you’re out there until your friends tell them about you. True networkers help each other out and my city and Twitter is a great example. My big mouth has finally paid off and I hope this is a start of something great.

That’s right I got a gig. It may be small but I’m going to try a new endeavor and see how I like it. If I like it, great, I’m going to run with it! Maybe run all the way to D.C. HaHa I will give out more details as the gig gets closer… Don’t want to give you all the juicy info just yet, got to keep you coming back each week.

Until next week...

-Gezika

Week 2, 3 and 4.

So, I made it through week two alive.

It was much harder than week one.

Three was better, and now here we are at Week #4.

I haven't done anything worth really blogging about, hence why I havent written. I really don't have anything to write about now either, but I figured if I'd sit down and make myself do it, I'd find something to write about.

See, now things are coming to me as I sit here...

Today, in week 4, they remains of what is believed to be Morgan Harrington were found in Albemarle County. Morgan is the 20yr old VT student who went missing after a Metallica concert at JPJ in Charlottesville.

It was so tragic to see the tweet this morning from @CBS6 on Twitter about remains being found. My heart sunk when I read it, because I knew it was probably Morgan. http://www.wtvr.com/

I can't even imagine why someone would want to abduct another human. Who does that? I hope her killer is found and is sentenced to death. That beautiful girl had so much more life to live.

On a post-Christmas note, I have finally decided what I wanted for my gift from my honey bunches. Yes, I know, it's January. He had originally gotten me a digital camera, even though I already have one that I received Christmas 2008. So he returned it and I decided on an HD Video Camera.

I have been waiting anxiously to get the word that is has been delivered at work. Nothing yet and it's 7:00pm. Ugh... Fed-Ex, get on it!

The camera I ordered online (and saved over $40 on) is pink-->

need I say more?

I'm sure there will be blogs soon about it and including videos from it. Now, if I could just get some help on video editing software. Any ideas?

Now, my workouts...

They are kickin my tail. @WhitStyles has been working us hard at Puma Bootcamp. I feel like such a weakling when I am there, but I know it will soon pay off. I do feel better already even though this is just the beginning of week 4.

I haven't put on my Swarovski crystal adorned jeans yet, but I think I feel a small difference in my dress-pants, which I wear daily. Also the arms are seeming to get a little better, but there is no "gun-show" going on just yet. ;)

Another thing I find really funny when I workout is that my motor-skills and my rhythym is off. I've got pretty good rhythym and can usually find a balance. I can dance to the beat, hear beats and I dont have any weird complexes, but when working out, the whole opposite arm/leg thing really gets me. Whit thinks it's funny, but it really irks me.

Okay Gezika, left leg forward, right arm up. Wait, your other right. Yeah that's what it sounds like.

I think it's just cause I'm in the zone and the blood is rushing to my muscle and not my brain, so it takes me a few trys to get the opposite leg/arm thing down. Am I the only one, or does anyone else do this?

Ya know now that I think about it, when I did the dance trance classes and step classes at Gold's Gym I had the same problem. Maybe that had to do with the moves being delayed since I was watching the instructor and mimicking her, but the beat in the music had already passed, so I was thrown off. Yeah... that's it. I'm too into listening than being visual.

Moving on, but speaking of rhythym; I can't wait to go to DC next month to see Ferry Corsten at GLOW(f.u.r.)!

I have never seen Ferry Corsten; although when I was in Miami at "Club Space" I waited in the long line, and even experienced Miami-Dade police taser people in line for, well nothing other than making an example of them. I didn't get in after the security picked and prodded at my ID card and then realized I wasn't 21 yet. What a let down.


This time I'm DEF of age to get in, and gosh darnit, I'm gonna dance the night away... FINALLY!


I hope a few friends are able to go with me and watch Ferry blow the roof off the club. Oooh and I'll have the video camera too, so maybe I'll bring that along and capture the festivities.


This blog is boring with no pics or links... let me fix that...



Okay, now there are some pics/links above... Shew much better.





Now, onto the two LOML's... (Love of my Life)...



Steve (the b/f)- he's okay, just working a lot. He got sick last night with a nasty sinus infection. Nothing and Advil Cold & Sinus couldn't fix. He's feeling a lot better today. Nurse Gezika to the rescue!
<-- here he is laying on the couch, sniffling. Notice the box of tissues in the bottom of the pic.

The Cabrio- okay so we've gathered she doesn't like snow, but now it's rain also. On Sunday night it rained heavy artillery and the VW decided to collect the rain waters for me. Not sure where she so kindly stored the rain drops at, but I can hear "sloshing" around when I hit the brakes or go around the corner. Note to self: don't park front end down on a hill so all the water collects somewhere in the front of the car.
I LOVE my Volkswagen.

Okay, well that's it for this week unless I do a end of Week 4 update later on.



-Gezika

Week One | 2010

It a new year. 2010. (like you didn't know that already huh?)

2009 is over and I think I speak for most people when I say "thank goodness!!!"

What a tough uneventful year that was not the highlight of my life thus far.

Now I'm sure I did many fun things and spent great time with great people, but I can't remember one thing that stands out to me that happened in 2009.

That's okay, let's move on to 2010. A fresh year and the year for change. Yes, that's right not maybe, or sometime later this year. NOW. After all, Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results. I can confess, 2009 was a year of Insanity.

So we all set New Year Resolutions, and probably most of us have the same resolutions as years prior, right? I do. It sucks to look back and see how we failed miserably. Why do accept this thing called Insanity?

This year is time for change though! I've began my journey for my most important resolution. Getting fit again and getting back in those Express size 26 Swarovski Crystal embellished jeans I so dearly loved LOVE.

I still love them I just love them from afar, as they sit on my "before" clothes in my closet. By before I mean; before I started the downward spiral we will call "the capital of the state" and "the restaurant we didn't have in the mountains back home."


I've began my journey with my personal trainer @WhitStyles at Styles Fitness Group. Whit is a young 20 something like myself that is doing her dream and helping me do mine. She left the corporate world, something we all wish we could do and is out there on her own, making it and looking good doing it. I not only aspire to be like her, but to dream like her. http://www.stylesgroupfitness.com/

Puma Bootcamp kickoff pic --->

(yes I am pictured here)






So my next resolution is to find something I love and DO IT. Don't get me wrong I like my job and the flexibility but I'm so tired of working for someone else doing "minion" work. I'm not using my full potential and I feel like I'm stuck here because I have bills. It's a vicious cycle. Granted, if I had less bills to pay, I'd be better off and enjoying my days off instead of working 2 other jobs. That part takes time to chip away at.

But even so, I'll repeat myself- I feel like I'm not using my full potential, in fact; this is boring. I could do this job in my sleep. I could be doing anything I want, just like my parents told me when I was young, but here I am in retail ten years later, cause I'm good at it, and truthfully, it's the ONLY thing on my resume. I don't want to be good at retail, this job was supposed to end when I finished school. Why am I still here?

I'm creative, outgoing, open minded, nice, happy, and I have a personality (which many people don't). I can do anything if taught once. I learn quick and have more common sense than you can shake a stick at. I have 2 main things that interest me that could be the rest of my life... Volkswagen and Electronic Music. That's where I get stuck.

I won't dwell on this last part, cause I've got my 2010 plan sorted out and firing on all cylinders. One leads to the other. I will use my full potential in all that I do this year. I may feel stuck, but I'm wedging my way out and the rest of my twenty-somethings won't go to waste. Promise.

Here's to Week 1 in 2010!
-Gezika